Taking Charge of My Food Addiction

by Ryelle
(Portland, OR, USA)

I like many of you people out there have been fat since childhood. I cannot remember a time when I was young that I did not FEEL fat. When I was 12 I weighed 195 pounds. My family had other issues to deal with and therefore never really even tried to get me to lose the weight. I doubt I would have responded in a positive way anyway.

Long story short.. at 19 I moved out of the house and within 6 months I lost 60 pounds.

Throughout most of my adult life I kept most of it off. When I was 55 I had ballooned up to 275 and decided to try the 6 week body makeover plan. For whatever reason I was sufficiently motivated to stay with the program for 3 years and lost 100 pounds within the first year.

I felt great.. exercised every day for around an hour and was down to a size 13-14...

I had never felt this thin and healthy.

Then I gradually started to lose interest in it... had a couple of deaths in the family which gave me the excuse to get good and depressed and began to eat with a fury. I think my body was truly craving the fat it had been denied for 3 years...

Anyway.. after 2 years of overeating with no exercise in sight I gained it all back and then some.

So finally this past October in 2010 I decided almost on a whim to have lapband surgery. I was facing the fact that I didn't think I could do it again on my own. I needed some type of outside intervention which would continually help me to contract my eating habits.

It's been almost 2 months since I started to cut back and have the surgery. So far I have lost 34 pounds.

Can hardly tell at all. I can feel a difference and the clothes do fit looser but I have a 100 more to go to get where I was 4 years ago. It's sad that I allowed myself to get to this state.. but I will truck on and keep trying.